Pondering...

Today I got the chance to spend some time with a friend I haven't seen all summer. I enjoyed it a lot. We had lunch together, and then walked around town and talked for almost three hours. We both went in different directions at the beginning of summer, her focus being bible camp and my focus being my trip to Mexico. Since then we've both been pondering many ideas we've had in the past. I found it interesting that we had both thoguh about the same things and come to the same conclusions even though we hadn't spoken to each other in two months.

One of the things I've had problems with since returning to Canada was the way people dress here. Normally it isn't a terrible thing, but after going to a country that is extremely conscious about how much skin their ladies show, and coming home to find girls walking around town in bikini tops and short shorts, or other scanty outfits, really makes one think. The conclusion I've come to is, if I wouldn't wear it in Mexico, what makes it okay for me to wear it here? Wearing revealing clothing will still do the same things to the boys here as it would there. The only difference is it's culturally exceptable here.

I am an ambitious girl who loves to dream big. One of my older dreams was to become a clothing designer and design clothing that was stylish and modest. Modest clothing isn't always easy to come by when you want something that you actually like. I mean, I love lounging around in my man jeans and a tee, but sometimes I feel like making myself look more like a lady. It's just how girls are made. I had abandoned this dream, because my father told me it wasn't practical and other people thought it was stupid. Talking with my friend today, she told me she had the same ideas, yet had also abandoned them. Her boyfriend spent the summer telling her that maybe she should go for it.

After talking with my friend about the various other ideas we'd had over the last few years and abandoned, we both started to wonder. Were they really worth abandoning? Or were we on to something? Who knows. Until we figure it all out, we'll be relying on God to direct our paths. That's all I have time for tonight.